Thursday, May 11, 2006

An open letter to Always and Forever .... where ever you may be

Always and Forever and Once upon a time..... it all sounds like a fairytale. And we all know fairytales can't come true. Can they?

Hello......

I smiled sadly when I read your comment today-- the one you left hidden in one of my old posts. (March archives: Two Lights Contest)

You asked me if I even knew who you were?
Do you really think for a minute that I would ever forget you?

You disappeared from my life a long time ago. Now, suddenly, you appear out of the blue and leave me a comment, anonymously. Life is so melancholy.

Have I ever wondered about you? Have I ever missed you?
My answer is: What do you think?

It is not everyday that a guy proposes and offers to open and share a commemorative bottle of port, one of only 500 produced -- and given to you at a retirement party of a Royal Australian Navy base. (I bet you didn't think I remembered all that)

I don't even know what really happened to us. I'm not sure it really matters. I don't know what ever happened to you. I didn't know if you were dead or alive. You left without a trace and without as much as a goodbye. I have no idea where you are. 

You've traveled all over the world. And you showered me with gifts -- a tapestry from Hong Kong, a gold necklace from Thailand, a kimono from Korea.... It was not all material things - I remember everything. You said I was your princess and you sang to me -- all the time. And when I hear the songs on the radio, it all comes back:

They read you Cinderella, you hoped it would come true
and one day a prince charming would come rescue you
you like romantic movies and you never will forget
the way it felt when Romeo kissed Juliette
and all this time that you've been waiting
you don't have to wait no more
I can love you like that, I would make you my world
move heaven and earth if you were my girl.....


You came into my life when I really needed you but things happened and our lives took different roads. Still, I would not exchange what we once had for anything in the world. Please know that.
And know that I wish you happiness. You deserve it. I really hope you found/find it.

Always and forever,
me

6 comments:

  1. I hope he responds so you can both have some closure.

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  2. Thanks, Jason.
    You know, as I thought back, I couldn't help but hear Garth Brook's song "Unanswered Prayers" going through my head...

    Still, I wonder where he is and especially, how long he's been reading my blog now or did he just discover it?

    :)

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  3. What a touching and potent piece of writing. You moved me with your heartfelt response.

    Someone from my past found my blog last December - no one as close to me as your admirer was to you, but even so, I wish I'd said something with 1/10th the emotional resonance that you've left us with here.

    Beautiful.

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  4. thanks, Mark.

    I'm starting to wonder if he'll be back to read it.

    Hey "801" - if you come back, leave me a message. I'd love to hear from you.
    :)

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  5. September, Thank you for your comments on my blog: birthmotherofadopted.blogspot.com
    I loved reading yours. It reads almost like a friend sitting next to me and talking openly with me.
    Who is Mandy? (Can't see the photo well.) Surely hope and pray it's not a human baby.........

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  6. Hi Sue. Thanks for visiting my blog and for the kind comments. :)
    No, Mandy is not a human baby, I just loved her very much. She was my little shitsu puppy. I just pray that whoever took her, took precious care of her.

    You know, I still look for her everywhere I go - always keeping my ears open to her little bark and my eyes open. I've even stopped a couple of people walking their pet to pat a couple of little doggies. My Mandy had a small benign tumor on her back. If I ever find her, and she looks happy, I'll let her be.

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